sour heart.

u avoided my msges.u didnt even tell me u going to sleep,its really not even fair.i gave you time to cool down when u really needed time to cool.for you my msges exploded. ur fb sent items i saw long ago. who are the people u exchanged msn with?i dun wish to know.i kept quiet .everything im able to do i do.i just want you to visit me willingly and care for me.i liked being loved.now im so deprived,i behaved like someone crazy and mad until i dont know who am i.u just sleep like this.its pain.u just avoided everything.im only given instructions to wait and just thrown aside like everyone did,even my family.when im young they throw me aside.they only liked my siblings.go overseas nv bring me go.i have to stay at home.my life.you dont know.i wanted to die.do you even know why?you dont know.my mom doesnt ask me to go home.you never bothered .the time i needed you the most where are you?when you slept i cant reach you im very empty.feels like the whole world just thrown me aside.im just someone who is happy when needed and sad when being left aside i want sleep le,wan an baby,im so happy for shuhui baby i love you very much