sometimes i just dont want everything. i want to travel with my baby ):
somewhere further away from this place and away from this busy urban jungle ):

if i havent got my baby
can i get a chance to eat seafood platter by chance?
can i take my first plane ride?
can i go to somewhere far away to have fun just the 2 of us?
can i have a wardrobe that is able to let me have so much clothes that i cant possibly wear it all?
can i be able to sell bags?
can i have a room that is full of everything that i needed?
can i have forever supply of eclipse?
can i have a sheltered life?
can i have my flower bulbs?
can i have my many many shoesssss

my baby cares for me like no other

):

life is precious ): dont ride bikes ):
life is fragile ):

sour heart.

u avoided my msges.u didnt even tell me u going to sleep,its really not even fair.i gave you time to cool down when u really needed time to cool.for you my msges exploded. ur fb sent items i saw long ago. who are the people u exchanged msn with?i dun wish to know.i kept quiet .everything im able to do i do.i just want you to visit me willingly and care for me.i liked being loved.now im so deprived,i behaved like someone crazy and mad until i dont know who am i.u just sleep like this.its pain.u just avoided everything.im only given instructions to wait and just thrown aside like everyone did,even my family.when im young they throw me aside.they only liked my siblings.go overseas nv bring me go.i have to stay at home.my life.you dont know.i wanted to die.do you even know why?you dont know.my mom doesnt ask me to go home.you never bothered .the time i needed you the most where are you?when you slept i cant reach you im very empty.feels like the whole world just thrown me aside.im just someone who is happy when needed and sad when being left aside i want sleep le,wan an baby,im so happy for shuhui baby i love you very much

AM i happy?

no im not.
obviously not and im super ultra blind and shuld eat shit.